INFJ

I am a big fan of personality tests. Whether it's "What Your Fingernails Say About You" or "Which Hunger Games Character Are You Most Like", I am a sucker for self-analysis.

Obviously, I'm Peeta. He's the only one who does normal things. Also, I own that same dress.

One of the only personality tests I have actually deemed legitimate is the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. Maybe you have taken it, but if not, here is a novice description.

The test is based on four pairs of dichotomies which are:

Extraversion (E) - (I) Introversion
Sensing (S) - (N) Intuition
Thinking (T) - (F) Feeling
Judging (J) - (P) Perception

In each dichotomy, you will display greater characteristics of one over the other. For example, my result is INFJ (more on that later).

This test is frequently used to help determine an optimal career choice for your personality. I once took this in a career counseling office in my freshman year of college. Thank goodness I took career counseling, by the way, or I wouldn't be the thriving business-woman you read about in Forbes all the time. Plus, I got a t-shirt that said "I've got MAJOR problems" which always made people laugh/feel sorry for me because they didn't get the joke.

The most legitimate MBTI tests are taken through a counseling center, but you can also take a mini-version here, if you are interested.

Anyway, I recently retook the test to get some insight into my personality. I originally wrote about the results in my private blog (I know, I know. Two blogs. It must be a sickness), but as I was processing through it, I started to think that these are things I might actually want people to know.

For the general public, I assume the most controversial dichotomy in my results is the fact that I am an introvert. To some, this will come as no surprise because A) they either know me very well or B) they know me in an atmosphere where I am very quiet. To most, this will be a bit of a surprise. I was at a party the other night where I was talking about my introversion and a person said "eeeYEAH RIGHT".

I totally get this reaction. I think, for the most part, I have always been known as highly energetic and conversational, and these things are true. But in the true definition of being an introvert, as in whether I get my energy alone or with people, oh yeah, I'm an introvert. Get away from me.

From here on out, I am just going to copy and paste the entry from my private blog. It's kind of wordy, but you are basically reading my diary, so feel very privileged.


Apparently, INFJs are the most rare personality type in the world. Only 1-3% of the population can be classified as INFJs. Obviously, I like that. I was pissed when my blood type was O+, the most common of all blood types. I was sure I had some O neg running through my veins.

Anyway, here are some pieces of the description by Dr. David Kiersey that resonate with me. This description refers to the INFJ type as "Counselors":

• Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. 
• This is true of me because I am a super functional introvert. I almost always get pre-exhaustion at the very thought of a large party, but I usually always have a great time talking to people. It is true that I'm not really resting unless I am by myself.

• Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. 
• While I have a great desire for people to know me, I have an even greater desire to know the people in my life. If all of my friends could tell me their MBTI results, I would want to talk for hours about how they feel about it. I sometimes listen at the expense of sharing things about myself, which is something close friends have called to my attention.

• Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes. 
• I've been called a leader before by people because I am sometimes loud and often expressive. In all reality, leadership positions mostly scare me. I have stress dreams about being elected President.

• [Counselors] can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. 
• I have big, fat emotions. Like, I've never really felt a-little-bit-something. I usually experience an emotion in the same way I would experience eating a whole onion in ten seconds. It's pretty extreme. For the most part, only Daniel and my family really understand this about me.

• They have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them. 
• I am so constantly confused by what I am feeling, it's stupid. I feel like I have an immediate sense for others' emotions, but I often have to take tremendous time to evaluate why I feel the way I do. 

• Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. 
• I am often complimented on my use of language. I am probably best understood through writing.

• Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena. 
• Feelings about another person's authenticity are almost blinding to me. I often can't function well around someone who I see as "fake" or "smarmy." It's not about being intimidated, but rather, I am so repelled by their nature that I want to show them no vulnerability. I guess it's self-preservation, but people who think I am quiet are probably people who I absolutely do not trust. 

Other descriptions that interest me:

• They are quite private and typically difficult to understand. 
• I feel like this one hurts me sometimes. There are quite a few people who feel like they know me, but I have a great tendency to retreat into myself, which puts those friends at a loss.

• They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress. 
• Yep.

• INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. 
• This is basically my daily battle. While I faithfully believe in God's provision for me, I often feel as though I have never accomplished anything. My heart's desire is to create something important, but I constantly fear that I never will. 

Anyway, this is easily the most sensitive information I've shared in this blog. You might question why I even wrote this, and you can rest assured that I am questioning myself in the same way.

I once heard a wise person say that the greatest thing that could ever happen to you is having your worst secret exposed for all the world to see. That way, there would be no hiding, no games. This personality profile is not my biggest secret (I'm not a fool), but it's like I'm peeking behind the corner of my hiding spot. It's at least kind of a good thing, I think.

I would love to hear anyone else's experience with this test, or with any other personality test for that matter. Do you feel like it's legit? Should we be putting that much stock in personality tests? I really don't know. Tell me.

Especially if you have a psychology degree or have taken an upper-level psychology class (entry-level, save your breath).

An Honest Account

The other night, I went to a little party to honor my friend Rebecca on her birthday. It was a small ladies' get-together in her impeccably adorable apartment. I just now realized we didn't take any pictures which is a crime because we all looked really cute. I'll just have to substitute one with this picture of The Golden Girls.

Pretend this was taken at Rebecca's 23rd birthday party. Also, pretend I'm Dorothy. I would be, right?

Anyway, when I arrived at this party, little did I know that I had brought with me the best conversation-starter imaginable.

Ignore the man (I know. It's hard. He's so handsome) and focus on what he's holding.

This mason jar full of green liquid opened a floodgate of conversation at the party. And why shouldn't it? I'm sure you are gazing at this picture in wonderment right at this very moment with questions like:

What is that?

Why would Christy bring this to a party?

Wait. Is that the slime stuff from Troll 2?

"Half man, half plant. A goblin's favorite food"

These are all valid questions (especially that last one). The short answer is that the mason jar full of green liquid was, in fact, my dinner. It's a juice, actually. I brought it to Rebecca's party to consume. Also, it had nothing to do with Troll 2.

The long answer is a lot more involved, but considering how much conversation it brought up at a small get-together, I think it might be a road worth going down. 

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For the past 10 days, Daniel and I have been on a program called Reboot Your Life. In this program, you eat nothing but fruits and vegetables for 5 days. Then for 5 more days, you consume nothing but juice. Then for another 5 days, you are back to fruits and vegetables (total of 15 days). It's based on the documentary Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead (available on instant Netflix, by the way).

This poster is too genius.

In the film, this Australian gentleman (Joe Cross) decides to road trip across America while taking part in a 60 day juice fast. He meets a lot of cooky Americans, including gun shop owners and truck drivers. 

At the end of his 60 day juice fast, guess what happens! 

spoiler alert...

He loses weight!

Surprised? Of course you're not. You would have to be the Hamburglar himself in order to assume this guy wasn't going to lose weight after 60 days of drinking pure juice. 

I'm assuming the Hamburglar has no concept of calories, but that might not be a fair judgement.

He lost a ton of weight, but that is not what interested me. This is:

Before Joe started his juice fast, he was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called chronic uticaria. You can look it up on google images, if you dare. Actually, don't -- It's disgusting. But basically it created a super painful rash all over his body that flared up upon human contact.

By the end of his juice fast, he had no outbreaks and his meds had been significantly decreased. After continuing a vegetable-based diet, he is now off of his medicine completely. 

For me, this was intriguing and seemed like something worth evaluating. 

For the first couple of months of this year, I felt inordinately tired. Like, so tired I often felt like I was walking around in a dream. I couldn't really fathom a logical reason for this shift in my energy level. I was happy. I was exercising. I had my best friend Diet Dr. Pepper by my side at all times. How could this be?

I explained this situation to my employer/Health Mentor/Wisdom Provider, Michelle. At the time, she was doing the Reboot, and she was using words like "alert" and "energetic" and "great" to express how she was feeling. This seemed like the opposite of what she should be experiencing (I hadn't seen the movie yet). I thought that she must have meant to use words like "awful" or "garbage" or "death-like", but I realized after looking at her, that she clearly was feeling awesome. This is when I decided to give it a try.

Knowing I would have absolutely zero willpower, I asked Daniel if he would do it with me. Now you understand his facial expression in this picture.

The beginning was really tough. The week before, we were supposed to be preparing ourselves by gradually eliminating animal protein, processed foods, sugar etc. The hardest for me was letting go of caffeine. You guys, I will say with both shame and pride that I was absolutely addicted to Diet Dr. Pepper. She was a dear friend and saying goodbye to her was painful.

Literally. The headaches I felt on that first day of my Reboot were unreal. Like some elderly vampire, I spent the day cloaked in a blanket, hissing at the light.

It was also difficult to get myself super psyched to go grocery shopping all of the time. I hate going to the grocery store. I would rather have an annual root canal than ever have to go grocery shopping again. It was especially bad because we looked like an absolute freak show in the produce section.

People probably assumed we were shopping for our 50 rabbits.

As the days passed though, I was definitely starting to feel the benefits. It was amazing to not need caffeine. By day 5, I was on fire for veggies.

Then the juice came. 

Day 6 (Day 1 of drinking only juice) was for the most part alright. That was the day of Rebecca's party where I got to gladly share information about the Reboot. That night, however, right as I was supposed to be falling asleep, I started to get the weirdest cravings. 

You know how when someone is like "Hey, don't touch your face", all you want to do is touch your face? It's the same thing here. When this program said "Don't eat garbage", all I could think about was eating the most decadent, outlandishly terrible foods ever. This was my stream of consciousness:

Pizza, Calamari, Bread, Bread, Bread, Chick-Fil-A, Popcorn, Fried Shrimp, Fried Onion Rings, Fried Anything, French Fries, Spaghetti, Fried Oreos, Cookies, Cookies, Cake, Cookies, One of those chickens with ham and cheese in it, A whole fondu pot for myself, 8 Footlong sub sandwiches, Potatoes, Bread, One of those burgers with three patties and bacon and like a bunch of mayonnaise, BREAD!

As juicing went on, it got easier...I guess. That is, until I got sick. 

PAUSE.

I've had a lot of people tell me that I probably got sick because of the juicing. Juicing does not give you a viral infection and fever. I just got a virus that I would probably have gotten anyway. It is possible that my defenses were down, but think about all of the awesome vitamins going into my body. Not. The. Juice's. Fault.

But being sick has made it a lot harder. I will confess that the other night, I caved and ate a big bowl of pho just to get some extra calories in my body. I think it was the right decision. 

Anyway, my thought on the juicing portion of this whole thing is this: my body really didn't like it. Maybe if I spent a little more time juicing, I would get used to it, but I have been crazy hungry and not particularly energetic. That's not completely fair for me to say since I'm sick as a dog. It's just bad timing, really.

The upside though is that I am super excited now to get back to fruits and veggies. The movie talked about that. It talked about retraining your body to crave micronutrients (vegetables, fruits, nuts, beans) instead of macronutrients (everything else). I'm excited to finish this program and think of my meals differently. 

Anyway, five more days left and it seems like a piece of cake (or kale, I guess) because I'm back to eating what I now love. 

A new favorite. Acorn squash with portobello mushroom.

There have been a ton of different opinions when I tell people about the Reboot. Some people think I'm clinically insane. Others say I'm crazy, but I can tell they kind of want to try it. A small portion think it sounds like an interesting idea.

To all of these opinions, I say I totally get it. Had I not felt this need to regain my energy, I would never have thought to do something like this. I would have considered this to be starving myself and super unhealthy. 

However, after having made it through these last ten days, I can say that if you are anything like me, if you feel like your quality of life might be affected by what you're eating, this might be something worth entertaining. It's fifteen days. You won't die. Trust me.